Chelsea Striker Alvaro Morata revealed that he was thinking about leaving Stamford Bridge after a nightmare second half to the 2017-18 Premier League season.
"Last year I wasn't happy. I started well but at the end it was a disaster," Morata told reporters.
"I went out to the pitch and did even not know where I was. I considered returning to Spain or Italy.
"But you can't always escape reality, I left Spain to earn a place at the World Cup and I did not go.
"It was hard. I'm going to do everything I can to go to the next one, it was a difficult time because I expected to go.
"I didn't have the best season. The boss took a decision. I don't resent [Julen] Lopetegui, I wish him all the best at Real Madrid."
"There was never an option to return to Real Madrid this summer," the striker revealed.
Luis Enrique has recalled the 25-year-old for Spain National team, and Morata admits that returning to the squad was a nervous proposition.
"I feel like it's the first time, I was nervous yesterday, I arrived an hour and a half early," Morata continued.
"Luis Enrique tells us that he wants Spain to win again and that everyone knows who Spain are.
"There are times when I stopped appreciating coming here. You do not think about every match you play with the Spanish national team until you have to watch the matches from home."